i wish i could say it will get better but I dont even think it ever will for either of us. Maybe we should make them 2 live together and let them see what it feel like for us!
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Oh yeah I know what you mean! I said something to Dustin on the phone yesterday that I needed some hangers from the store. So he stopped and got them. Once he got home he thought he was just the sweetest guy ever. He thinks he helped me out so much by buying one thing of them. Then he refused to help me put the close on them. You know every girl wishes when her hubby buys something for her for it to be hangers! LOL!
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Wonderful about your classes, glad you and your hubby are doing well.. It's so sweet that when you told him you can't cook he said let's learn together.aww how sweet.
Have you been in the space needle? You guys should go have dinner there... like as a date. Sorry idk why that just popped in my head. Have you been in seattle in the winter? I love it! :)[xptandplx]
It's probably the anticipation of him coming home soon. Maybe keep yourself busy by preparing for his return. I'm glad he'll be home soon.[NotSoLovelyLife]
wow you must be so excited to see your husband! he's been gone for like a year!? thats crazy i dont know how you did it. I could hardly bare when my b/f went to Germany for just a month. you are so strong. yay long wknd!! i hav a 3 day wknd :) hope u hav a good one.[LucyFord]
And of course, yaaaay for David coming home to you soon. I'm sure you guys can work things out with the cleaning and stuff. Most important thing is that you guys will be together .[AutumnBreezesBlowing]
If you know anyone who wants a T Mobile phone, you may be able to transfer your plan over to someone else's name so you won't have to pay the cancellation fees! Call them and find out! I know either Cingular or Verizon do it! [desnudate]
I agree they do go through so much over there, but we do go through alot as well while waiting. Just berer there for him and show him that you care and you are willing to work on everything.
Thank you for your comment. WOW!, 13 months. I give you a lot of credit. You are a very strong woman. I hope the last two months fly by. That he'll return safely to you.
How long has been gone? Do you have an idea of when he will be returning? I am dealing with a similar situation now, though not married to my military man. He went to training two weeks ago and is currently on an international flight out right now. It sucks :([iDareYou]
i have sum freakky dreams me self..sumtimes scare me so much i cant get back to sleep...i had a reli reli reli scary dream one night after me n my friends played with an ouija board i dont even wana write it out cos ill probly ave that dream tonnight if i do lol...oh and im convinced that my house is haunted aswell...i keep hearin noises...and like u said seeing shadows..plz visit my diary and comment me..thanks
last entrys racist the only time i use words like black is if someone asks me what someone looks like and my moms boyfriend said some famous guys limbo driver was the blackist man he ever seen but hes not judjing him
(btw hes a security guard at a casino and yes meets famous ppl alot)
No matter the color of their skin.....I would be upset with drunks outside my window...I usually have kids that hit the side of the building here (an apartment) and shake the walls and scare us.
Maybe you would not be so bothered if they were a different color, but all in all thats kinda sad... "black people" maybe they dont like looking at you white people?? Just a thought....Im white BTW.
I did part of my internship w a korean and he always called me stupid. Apparently that's a riot to him, and it pissed me off because its not funny and I'm not stupid! He offered me ajob and I called and left a msg saying I can't work for him and now if I put him down as my internship guy he tells them iam unreliable!
I totally feel your pain! My puppy is 6 months and last week I came home from work and she had gotten into a cabinet thing and tore open 3 bags of noodles so there was noodles everywhere and then I go in my room and everything was torn up and she had drug all my blankets into the hall.... she only weighs 12 lbs I don't even know how she has the strength to do all that!!!
This was a lot longer than I had expected...[xptandplx]
My boyfriend David is thinking about joining the army and Im so scarred that he will go and never return home, It scares me so bad. We have two children and I dont want to lose him. I admire you for staying so strong throughout this. I've been reading your diary for awhile now and I can only hope I handle it that well if he decides to go. My diary is CrazyBitch2007 I dont use this one anymore[XoxDevotionxoX]
You need to trust him until you know he has done something. You 2 have apart for so long and you start thinking things. Just because someone else has a guy who cheats does not mean that David is cheating. You need to wait until he gets back before you start not trusting him. He needs to give you a reason to not trust him.
Trust can be scarey if you were let down by others in your life time. Especially if he is away right now, that makes it even harder. It'll be alright, you'll see.[Kat1962]
When Dustin came home for his R&R he was the same Dustin that left so many months before. When he came home for good he was very short tempered. He would go off about everything. Everything was his way or no way. He became cold towards me and Levi. I guess it was because we were the ones that were there all the time, so we were the ones that he took everything out on. He was no longer the same Dustin that left the year before. I hope for your sake that David is the same one that left. Just dont expect to much. If you do then you might be let down and hurt by it. I know you are alone and I know its hard, but being over there changes both the ones over there and the ones back home. I had a hard to tryng to relax. I was so used to it being me and Levi and someone coming back in and acting the way he did was to much stress on me at the time. I dont think I would have left it was for the fact tha I was pregnant and it was taking its toll on the baby at the time. Deployment changes everyone. So do expect for him to not be the same David that left.
I hope things go better for you once he get back home. I know you miss him and want him back now. I remember that all to well. Just dont hope for to much when he get back. It might leave you disappointed. He might not be the same person. I know Dustin wasnt when he got back. I even left him for a few months for the things he was doing and I couldnt handle it with me being pregnant. It was to much for me.
You're not alone. I'm not even close to being married and I have feelings like you have. Only difference is that you've had a chance to start a life together, I am still waiting for that. It's one day at a time.
I still wish that me and dustin had what we had when we first got together. I miss the way he used to be with me. It is hard I know. You can do it. You have made it this far. Just hang in there.
Just try not to expect to much from him when he gets back home. I am going through hell now that dustin is home. He is not the person I married. I know that it is to be expected, but you never really understand it until it happens to you. That is how it has been for me.
dang..im really sorry. my 'unofficial ex bf' of 3 years is being sent to iraq in april, and im already heartbroken and miss him a lot. i hope ur husband comes home soon, and i pray he does okay in baghdad.[diva4u5]
I'm sorry you feel like this. Maybe if you think of something you'd like to tell him you should write it down in a notebook and place the notebook by the phone then wehn he calls you can refer to it? Good luck and hopefully you'll get EVERYTHING and ANYTHING you want[angelinhell]
Well I think you need to be very careful about getting into situations like this. With David gone and you always being alone. This guys must be crazy! You never know what he could do and or anything. She should be thinking about her baby and not herself or him. That is what matters the most.
She wont stop you from getting a good job if you don't let her. She shouldn't have that much power over you. Tell her to buzz off... You don't need someone like that in your life.
Having a loved one deployed is rough. My husbands cousin (who I absolutley love and adore was gone 3 times. The last 2 times....IRAC. Yes, it sucks! I am real close to his wife so i was her outlet no matter what. She would apologize at times....but i always told her not to...that's what i am here for. It takes awhile for things toget back to normal when they finally get back home. Just give him a little space and don't rush it...that makes them angry. They are coming home with alot on there minds. Alot of mixed emotions. Just be there for him and listen to him even if you don't agree. Good luck on your interview[meowshe]
I know that when dustin was over there the phones would just go off. It is just something that happens. It may not have been either of you to do it. Just to let you know Dustin is not the same as he was before he left. Sometimes I miss how he used to be with me. It just happens when they go through things like this.
It must be extreamly difficult to live away from your loved one.. I can't even start imagining... Being alone, at night especially... Having to face life's difficulties and challenges without him, (and traitorous friends of his!)... Good luck with all of it! I know you're strong enought![PrisonBird]
I think that's sexual assault, rape, whatever you want to call it (but in those terms) because you weren't a willing participant, you said no! It's NOT your fault and you don't deserve to feel guilty. That guy is an ASS!! Poor girl... first the step dad, then the 2 friends that want a piece of you...! What's going on?!?! Maybe you're sending out the wrong message without noticing or wanting to? I don't know... But I hope you won't let that guy touch you without your approval ANYMORE!
I have read a few of your entries and it sure seems like you have a full boat load of matters on your mind. First off, those friends of davids aren't friends at all. (think about it) Its your decision if you want to rejoin the service but I would also seriousely think about that too. Stay here and be safe while going back to school. yOUR MAN WILL BE BACK.
That is not cheating. If David's going to be mad at anyone then it would be Ben and Jack. I don't know how good of friends you are with them but I mean, you did kind of put yourself in that position by inviting them over and drinking... About David sleeping with two girls. ( I think ) he didn't know you. And it's not his fault. I wouldn't call what Ben did to you as rape, unless he used his manhood..... I hope everything goes okay with you and David. It sounds like you like him so much. Best of luck!
I know how you feel. I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better, but when you are going through this nothing really seems to help at all. They just go through so much over there that they do not want us to really worry by what they tell us. I know Dustin did the same things. He just knew I would worry much more if I really know what he was going through.
oh my god!!! ewwww for you! what an ugly situation...! I don't think you should keep it a secret, is that the kind of man you want your mother to be with? He's not honest... He's creepy and loves you! Not your mother... If you had a daughter who would share the same secret, would you rather know it and leave the guy? I mean... He's unfaithful and unworthy of your mother. I know you don't want her to be alone and all... But common... She deserves way better! She deserves to me loved and cherished... Not lied to and her boyfriend's in love with her daughter for christ sakes!! That's NOT ok... And I KNOW you know that and feel incredibly icky about this whole situation, I know I would!
You know when they say what you don't know can't hurt you, I think in this case it doesn't aply because you will never be able to have a normal relationship with your mother keeping that ugly lie from her...
Take it or leave it, the advice, what I'm saying probably isn't helping cause you are probably already feeling bad about all of this... poor you!!!
damn dats f***ed up, well try to drop little hints, but if you have a good relationship with your mother than you shouldnt have to hide stuff like this from her, it is not your fault that he dropped a bomb shell on you and now you are in a tough position,all i can do is wish for the best,good luck[ladycream]
Whoaaaaa. That is some violation there. And really selfish on his part. That's really f***ed up, that first off: He's with your mom but in love with you, and second off: he had the nerve to tell you. So it's not bad enough he's gotta live with his own problems he's gotta force you to, too. I'm sorry, i hope everything works out alright.[MashedTater]
Good luck! I had a miscarriage in august and now I'm one day late. I'm waiting two more days before i finally test (if i can resist that long!) So GOOD LUCK! The anticipation is killer, I know. www.pregnancy-info.net is a message board I go. They're pretty nice there.[VanityDespair]
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Good luck with the new job! And patience, your man is coming home soon, I'll pray for him to come back sooner! [
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